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In the silence of the night I hear your voice
In the moment of weakness without a choice hands that were cruel eyes that were cold only nineteen years old I was broken I was lost in the aftermath every touch every word like a haunting path But in the stillness of my pain. I still breathe In the wounds of my shame I still believe
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15 minutes feel like eternity
Knowing that could be the last time u spoke to me And I know it’s for the better, we weren’t meant for forever so I’ll watch you watch me walk away I press start on the car but it’s not going far cause I can’t keep my foot on the gas I know I shouldn go home but I can’t seem to go Cause I really thought we would last On the drive home I’ll regret everything I said used to call u home sweet home
But I don’t know anymore I forgot what it was to be loved by you I’m so lost I don’t know who I am anymore I forgot to remember how to love you too told me u loved me two weeks in
and i fell for it again and again you planted a future in my head and I don’t think u meant a single word you said I held on to broken promises I feel into my own darkness just tryna to make it make sense but now I only talk about you in the past tense 16 and stupid as can be
reckless, in love, extremely naive I held ur hand as u led me through the dark I didn’t understand u would turn it into flames every thing u said every I love u and it’ll always be true if only that girl knew before you I didn’t have to fake a smile after I haven’t been me in a while before you I loved every part of me after I hate who I have to be. 17 years old and stranded as it seems you think you know someone, but do you ever really? shattered glass on the ground be careful love, it’ll hurt every thing u said every I love u and it’ll always be true if only that stupid girl knew before you I knew how to be alive after I’m just trying survive before you I hardly ever cried after I think apart of me has died 18 and broken as can be but I’m slowly picking up the pieces of me before you it’s wasn’t so hard after I know I’ve come so damn far sometimes when I look in the mirror
I don’t recognize my face I ask my self who is this girl standing in my place fake it till I make it but I feel like I’m about to break if everyone calls me little miss sun shine why don’t I feel that way can somebody tell me I’ll be okay the rain bow comes after the rain Can’t let them see the broken in me so I’ll just keep pretending telling myself it’ll all go away chalk it up to growing pains would that little girl in picture be proud of who I become would she be sad I stopped with Barbie’s now I just wanna look like one scarped knees turn into broken hearts and dreams into anxious thoughts paint a smile while I put on a show for the perfect frame I’m faking can somebody tell me I’ll be okay The rain bow comes after the rain can’t let them see the broken in me so I’ll just keep pretending telling myself it’ll all go away chalk it up to growing pains but I have to know know that I’ll be okay the rainbow comes after the rain i’ll let them see the broken in me don’t have to keep pretending telling myself it’ll all go away after all, they’re only growing pains country roads
they are my home but it’s not the place where I belong all my friends they’re staying home so i guess it’s time to do this on my own goodbye west virginia I hope you know that I’ll miss ya you’ll be apart of me in everything I try to be goodbye mountain momma I hope you know that I’m gonna do my best to make this small town proud of me dark and dusty skies they raised me all these memories I’ll take them with me from the friday night lights to those endless summer nights almost heaven, that’s what you gave me goodbye west virginia I hope you know that I’ll miss ya you’ll be apart of me in everything I try to be goodbye mountain momma I hope you know that I’m gonna do my best to make this small town proud of me headed down to tennessee gonna go and chase my dream look at me... growin like a breeze goodbye west virginia I hope you know that I’ll miss ya you’ll be apart of me in everything I try to be goodbye mountain momma I hope you know that I’m gonna do my best to make my small town proud of me you'll hear me on the radio someday singing about my home far away so, goodbye west virginia a year ago you were telling me I was the prettiest girl you’d ever seen
now these days all the things I hear you say are not okay all I ever did was love you all you ever did was stay untrue I guess the guy I loved I never really knew you can degrade me and betray me but you still check on me daily so I don’t understand the story you’re creating if your gonna go and spread lie about me then I’ll go and spread the truth about you cause you get to be the good guy and we both know that’s a lie cause there’s always two sides to a story a year ago I would’ve never believed that you would be the person to cheat now these days all the things I wanna say should be okay all I ever did was try my best all you ever did was break my trust I guess it wasn’t really love if never really knew you you can degrade me and betray me but you still check on me daily so I don’t understand the story you’re creating if your gonna go and spread lie about me then I’ll go and spread the truth about you cause you get to be the good guy and we both know that’s a lie cause there’s always two sides to a story I hate the way u make me feel
I hate the way it was never really real I hate the way I don’t hate u at all I hate the way that I still care I hate the way that ur still there I hate that I don't hate u at all cause I still play the idea of us in my head I still play the idea I had of u instead And I know u weren’t the person u thought u were But that doesn’t help the way it still hurts I hate the way you blow up my phone I hate the way u make me feel so alone I hate the way u don’t hate u at all I hate the way that you still care I hate the way that ur still there I hate the way I don't hate u at all cause I still play the idea of us in my head I still play the idea I had of u instead And I know u weren’t the person u thought u were But that doesn’t help the way it still hurts I hate that ur happy I hate the ur okay I hate that I don’t hate u |
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